Record 22
Name: Juli Lawrence
Website: Shocked!
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From:
Time: 1998-08-12 07:26:54
Comments: Hi buddy! I"m in the process of updating the Shocked! website, as you already know. So I surfed on in, and WOWWWWWWW! Your site is looking GREAT! Congrats to you on your good work. Juli

Record 21
Name: Quiet
Website: Quiet's Corner
Referred by: Viewing another Guestbook
From: USA
Time: 1998-07-15 16:30:14
Comments: This is a great page. I really like the poetry. Thank you for having it!

Record 20
Name: Irene Lynch
Website: ALEPPOS
Referred by: NewsGroups
From: Colts Neck NJ
Time: 1998-07-07 15:19:13
Comments: holy toledo, nugie!!! it's been awhile, and i'm awed. you are so damned creative, and it jus gets better and better. love your wee flashing, moving red buffalo! how does one do that on a web page? (i'll never learn!) you a must on my homepage, but won't be able to update til i get back from boston, and possibly dc (not sure about nami yet--it's good chance to adgitate since it's easier for me to drive to dc, but i am be too tired. love you and all you do, you old coot! irene

Record 19
Name: Elven Lord/Ilen
Website:
Referred by: Word of Mouth
From: Florida
Time: 1998-07-06 18:24:10
Comments: "Ignored" Alone, awake, unaltered state. No matter how I scratch the glass I cannot interact, relate. Separated, nothing can pass. No one's paying attention, not even after I tried to ask. There's never any redemption for the pain of the mask. The pain of lonely, unheeded. Ignored, forgotten, unneeded. Frustrated enough to want the physical pain. It can't daunt me. I wish for dark, never to feel again. Please, make it all unreal. HEY YOU! YES, YOU! I have needs, too. Fucking talking to YOU! I can hurt. That, you knew. Hello! Someone, hello! Do not let it all go. Not again. Such despair, such dark. So bare. Running out of words, soon left to action. Running out of life. Death is the attraction. Why live? What purpose? I tire of being ignored. And anyhow, no one has ever yet implored me to stay. So why not leave? Leave grief. Leave pain. Leave the people. Relief. You don't listen. You don't care. Any of you. This poetry, reaching out. Nothing left to do. You think it isn't you. Or does that go through your mind at all? No, I don't think you've a clue. I open my fist and see only a crumpled soul. My soul. My mind. Trapped in decline. And here, written on some ancient scroll were the words that might have been the sign. The words of my heart. The words no one hears. If it ceased to speak, no one would ever notice. They don't even notice I'm alive. The mist clears and nothing is there. They forgot me in Darkness. So perhaps those I meant to live for don't deserve the struggle I go through. If they never care any longer, anymore, then so be it. Ignore me. All of you. You'll be sorry, so sorry. Keep hurting me. Keep up with your uncaring. One day you'll wish to love me. But you see, it will be too late. Keep daring. Because I won't wait for any of you. Dammit, I'll take myself away, too. Never again would you hear my advice. For ignoring me, pay the ultimate price. *Copyright 1998, Elven Lord/Ilen/Renee Boykin Please ask permission to reprint or display elsewhere.

Record 18
Name: Elven Lord/Ilen
Website:
Referred by: Word of Mouth
From: Stuart, Florida
Time: 1998-07-06 18:16:33
Comments: 'Lo and all, RB. :)

Record 17
Name: Jorge Ruivo
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Portugal
Time: 1998-07-03 12:55:55
Comments: Everybody can read my messages. I hate PGP. Because even if there is somebody watching us. I don´t have anything to hide. I have Sex, I use Drugs, I am an agressive pacifist. If you fight me, I will try to strike you back hardest possible. I never was in Psychiatry in my own Country, but I was in Belgium and Germany. Belgium was fair. They gave me Haldol for two days and after that they gave me pills which I could spit out again. In Germany it´s quite different. They pump you up extremly hard. Dr. Kohl a woman gave me Haldol Injections into my arm for a week and a half. The gave me neurocil. An LSD-Horror-Trip is a holiday compared to the Atmosphere of German Psychiatry when you are down. Completley different was Belgium. There was a House for the rich and there was a house for the poor. The rich (like me) (I live in Germany) had comfortable single bed rooms with radio and good "The Tripods´" atmosphere. For the poor ones it´s completely differnt. They live like in the psychiatry of the 50´s. There was a party one day and somehow I had the feeling that I had to knee down for the king of Belgium. It was so crazy. In Germany you don´t get well so fast. Anyway, German Psychiatry was a traumatic experience for me and In belgium I absolutly was convinced of Alien existence and control, so that I´tried to warn everybody. I wanted to escape overcivilazation and I still want back to my country of beloved Portugal. But the chains of over- civilazation are hard to break. When you live in Over- civilized countries like U.S. or Germany you get so lazy and you forget all surviving abilities. You eat shit you think shit, you smoke shit. My grandma still coocks on real fire somebody may bless her. She eats what she grows. She has the absolute control over her life. And Us? Internet Multimedia, Gates, I think everybody who don´t thinks cosmopolitic deserves death. Gates "deserves" the electric chair for moral crime against humanity because he stands for Monopolism/Singularism. But Gates and the people who work for him are just a minority. We must pluralize our strategys. Everybody can think for himself. But if we all would think together in a cosmopolitic way we would be able to change the face of the world. Two hemispheres in the brain, so evereybody must be shizophrenic. I cannot forgive history´s fault´s. Freud will not be forgiven Hitler will not be forgiven Reagan will not be forgiven nobody will ever be forgiven because we are all guilty everybody

Record 16
Name: Eric Simpson
Website: Site of Meaning
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Bay Area, CA
Time: 1998-06-27 19:43:22
Comments: You have a lot of excellent information here. Keep up the good work!

Record 15
Name: Nancy
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: originally Berkeley, now Oregon
Time: 1998-06-21 16:19:45
Comments: came over from the 10 reasons page. WOW! I was trying to find nutritional care for a "bipolar" friend and found this, which gave me a different view. I've known for a long time that psychiatry views the patient as a defective device in need of chemicals, and that the psychiatric police have all power, but didn't expect to find something so wonderful. THANK YOU.

Record 14
Name: Sasha McInnes
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From:
Time: 1998-05-18 00:43:23
Comments: Private!!! -Click to View-